I have not been able to stop crying since this morning when my ex (Odie's dad) told me our little dog got Mast cell tumor.  He had hidden the news from me because I am currently on vacation in New York so that I wouldn't get too upset the past few days.  I am trying to cancel all my activities tonight and see if I could catch an earlier flight home (I am supposed to leave tomorrow early in the morning).

This cancer could be fatal if Odie doesn't get operated on Wednesday.  It is not a rare disease but the location of the cancer cells are situated right above his left retina, which means one of his eyes might have to be taken out.

Odie has always been a healthy dog.  As optimistic as I always am, I am very traumatized this time.  It is not even about the sad feeling I might have from potentially losing him, it's about me not wanting my baby to suffer.

Thanks to those who have called to make sure I am ok today, I'll keep you all posted if there is any progress.

Kitty was my best friend at Google and still is a close friend of mine.  We have known each other for almost 6.5 years.  I still remember vividly the day we started our AdWords training at one of the original Google buildings.  Since then, we sat with each other in the same cubicle, had lunch together almost everyday, did the same translation, and dealt with difficult Chinese customers together.  We witnessed each other's ups and downs.  We bought our first home almost at the same time; I had Odie and was a total freaked out new mom, and Kitty helped me to take care of him; she was the first Google passenger of my new red RSX; I watched her growing big while she was pregnant with her first child - Dylan.  I once again freaked out the first time I saw baby Dylan. :)  She was there when I was going thru my tragic breakup. I felt terrible about the politics she had to go thru before she joined the new team at work.  I was a little sad yet happy to see her leaving for Singapore for an exciting one-year assignment.  And of course, I visited her when she was there.

Now she is pregnant with her second child and her due date is next week.  I always admire her courage and passion with both life and work.  Oh, almost forgot to mention, I wouldn't have gotten my scuba diving permit if it wasn't her inspiration.  Her dog's name is Scuba, and that tells you how much she is into scuba diving. :)

Female friendship means a great deal to me.  Its importance surpasses a lot of other things in my life.  I am glad to have you as my friend, Kitty, and I look forward to meeting the new member of your family.

Singledom is awesome.  Being happily single also means you are independent and self-sufficient emotionally.  People who have been single for long have a hard time getting into a relationship again even they finally find their special someone.  Here are the signs (and challenges) that show you have been single for too long.

1. You can't share a bed.  You really like the person and cuddling with him/her, but somehow you just can't easily fall asleep sharing bed even with your best friend of the same sex.

2. It's super sweet to hold hands and show PDA (Public Display of Affection), but it just seems a bit unnatural for now.

3. You feel weird when your partner always picks up the tabs (esp if you are a girl), because you are used to splitting bills with friends.

4. You can't keep the same walking pace with your new partner because you usually walk fast (or slow) alone, or walk with a group of friends when everyone walks different pace so it doesn't matter.

5. You check in Foursquare more often than to your new partner (This will be me...).